Passed opportunities.

Have you ever looked back at your life and thought "I really shoulda done that..."?

Perhaps I'm going through a quarter life crisis or something but I find myself now, quite regularly, kicking myself for not doing one thing or other.

Theres the typical shit like "Oh why didnt I try harder at school" but theres all sorts of other choices that I often kick myself over ranging from choice in car to choice in career. I wanted to be a cop and still do, in one way or another, but never followed up on it. Now when I read the papers I get so fucked off because some idiot cop screwed up in the simplest of ways or brutal assaults are being fobbed off because of low staff levels. Its not my fault that things are like this, but what am I doing to help?

I regret not getting a higher education. I know its not too late, Im just too friggin lazy and a little intimidated to say the least. I couldve had a cool job making a good income but no, Im a security guard. A fucking security guard. I supervise a great team of between 4 and 7 guys (because my useless fucking manager wont get off his arse and stabilise the staff numbers) for a great client. My immediate supervisor likes to think hes a fucking shrink because hes got a degree in social sciences or something. Its about a third of what you really need to be a psychologist but hes claiming to know it all anyway. My manager needs this pleb because my manager finds it hard to actually be a manager if he doesnt have someone to blame for fuckups (thats always me folks) and he needs someone to tell him when he needs to actually work. The big boss seems ok, but havent actually met him yet.

Geez, rant...

The thing that scares me now is Im only 26, so I have a hell of a lot more decision making to come. Sure I got a couple of things right along the way so far, but the odds arent in my favour at the moment. Im about to go into business with my lovely lady and I dont want to regret that. We get married this year and Im scared to flying fuck that something could make me regret that too.